Just some moments ago, my tears leaped out gently but uncontrollably while I was texting SH.

I guess it was just one of those edges of exasperation all filled in a day and I'm just not able to contain them well anymore.

I often loathe myself for trying so hard not to fail people and yet the bitter truth is that I end up failing myself instead, pathetically.

It seems simple to resurrect the marred soul upon dawn. But when it gets wearied and beaten day after day, what is really left of me?

I can only count on little blessings. Thanks SH. Your words have sedated me very much already.

And I just hope for another better day, again.

I like this weekend

I think this weekend is quite close to perfect.

Yesterday, I caught up with some episodes of Coffee Prince. Went to some tailor shop in Ubi with SH but realised that they have temporarily ceased tailoring women's shirts. Helped SH with some selection of cloth designs for his shirts instead. Then he came over to my place for a while, downloaded videos for me and lent me Haruki Murakami's book to read. Sweet.

Went for toning class this morning. Adjourned to Sushi Tei for my favourite sashimi salad. Light lunch but contented. Went for a hair wash and treatment thereafter. And I revised a little Korean via my useful little handbook. Back home now and I'm going to treat my folks to dinner later.

Yay! I hope I'm recharged substantially. Last week at work had taken quite a toll on me. I don't really want to go through this frequently.

Breathe, breathe. SH always tells me this when I'm on the verge of descent. I will remember it.

Yippee!

Belated birthday present from Shihui, Cynthia and Liping. I heart it!

Adele - Someone Like You

You know that, don't you?

It gets tougher

I didn't know it can be this miserable.

I don't wish to lose you. Yet I quaver at your presence at times.

It's just such a hard and emotional tussle deep within me.

You just don't know how it hurts.

30

I turn 30 today.

And no, I didn't shudder nor fear this arrival.

In retrospect, I think it's a grand entrance to a bigger life which I'll be embracing more than I never imagined.

My birthday wish? I just want to have everything and everyone I deserve because I know they are worth waiting for.

Buddha Bar Sunrise - Missing

Were you even there at all?

Or have you always been missing?

The closer we are, the more I'm petrified of stepping onto your restricted boundaries.

I really don't want this anymore.

Because it stirs and it hurts.

Give me an answer, will you?